Julia’s Story

Evie Magazine: A 5-Minute Call With An Abortion Clinic Changed My Life Forever

Article appeared in Evie Magazine | By: Julia Smith | Photo Credit: Evie Magazine

I thought my life was over. Ashamed and panicked, I imagined the reactions from my parents, friends, and deeply Christian, conservative college community. I felt trapped, standing at the entrance of a long, dark tunnel with no clue what lay inside or if the light at the end was real—much less worth it. I had always dreamed of becoming a mother, but not like this.

Abortion suddenly felt like the only way out.

“You’ve put yourself in this situation—now you have to fix it,” I thought. I quickly dialed the nearest abortion facility and connected with a staffer who recommended a chemical abortion. Yet as she casually described the process, I felt sick to my stomach.

My Catholic beliefs hadn’t stopped me from making the call in a moment of panic, but learning the details was different. The first pill would end my baby’s life; the second would expel him or her from my body. It was horrifying. I couldn’t imagine paying someone hundreds of dollars to do something that would harm my child and bring me unbearable emotional pain.

But that phone call, despite its panic and dread, became a turning point. It sparked my first moment of clarity since the positive pregnancy test.